These nights where I just stay up late or even up all night and all I can do is think of the wrong I have done and all the bad choices I’ve made and how things could be different. How can I lie to myself and say I don’t love him anymore when the only one I can think about when I’m alone is him! I’ve never felt more alone then when I lost him. When I lost him I felt this part of me die. When I lost him I felt this pain as if someone tore my heart in half and now they expect me to live with only the other half. I know that he will never see this or even know how much I still love him and how much it hurts that I don’t have him in my life to even call my friend. I’ve never felt more lost.